Happy Birthday to Me!

Today, I turned 24 and it is such a blessing to see a new year and to look back over my life to see how far I have come.

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How many people feel as if their birthday is not an important day? As if it is just a regular day and that it is not worth celebrating? I use to feel that way about my birthday, until one year I realized I had lived passed that age of 18. Something clicked inside that helped me realize that I am blessed to have made it this far in life. This moment was extremely important to me because for a huge chunk of my life the only thing I wanted to do was die. I saw no point of living because to me my life was too hard to experience.

For as long as I can remember, I struggled with depressive thoughts, suicidal tendencies and really low self esteem. I allowed my outer circumstances to dictate how I felt about myself. Today, at the age of 24 I am more than happy that I am alive and I now deem my life as valuable. Do I still struggle with self worth? Yes.

But, I no longer want to die, I want to live! I want to live on purpose, with love, adventure, and with a life of inspiration for others; for you. So, to those who are struggling with your worth and feeling as if your life does not matter, I'm here to tell you it does. As a survivor of many forms of affliction, I am here to let you know that this life can be better. It has it dark days and you may have a lot of bad hands dealt to you , but through it all know that you are so important and so amazing.

Your life matters! ​I hope you chose to live! SO! I not only wish myself a happy birthday, but I also wish you a very happy birthday as you too have lived to see a new day. It gets better!